MWOU

the hours of absence and abandonment

crushed what was left of that styrofoam cup

disposed of the waste that will always remain

yet lifted me to a higher place

onwards and upwards they say but those lies

will never set the sail on the leaking boat

the anxiety swells and it swells as i cower and dwell

for i hold my esteem on a platter served to your highness

it seems like i point the barrel to my head

with welcoming arms the sorrow holds me under

the bellowing waves and i gasp and i gasp

but i surface in time to see your fucking face

the further you walk the faster i follow

like a wide-eyed child with endless hopes and dreams

yet to be doused as they burn on the side of the road

by a fire you lit with your ignorance

how long can i wait as the days start to blend

and the night hides the day and the colors are gone

the only relief i can feel is severed when i wake ripped from my hands

but at least it sculpts a miserable smile from your broken mouth

i can finally release and complete

the delerious art underneath the stage

as you unwillingly perform your final cherade

i will burst through the ground and take what's mine

give me a random hello i want the chance to say no

for once i will thrust you away and not stay if i may

hold you back while you enter my head instead of a son

you were never the one

yet here i stand a man with no plan as the fan that i ran

aims the air that i breathe through your perfect hair and around

the skin that i long to explore like the bottoms of oceans

and the valuable words you utter behind locked closed doors

if i hold you in my arms my intentions will force

the great collapse and divide and i'll finally succumb

to your luring force which strips my freedom to be

and my mobility sees that nothing is free and there is no we